I bought a sketch pad and some charcoal sticks because I want to try something visual not using the computer. I used iphoto to take a pic of it, (i guess i can't get away from the computer...) here is one of the things i drew real quick. I kinda like it. I know nothing about the charcoal technique, so don't be a critic. I would like to take some art classes in the future. But, don't think I would be an art major so those classes would be pointless according to the system. 

... School is starting soon, I am getting excited about it, and scared. I had a dream last night that I went to my highschool and snuck into a class. I kinda liked it.

Also, I went to a zeroChurch core group meeting last night led by my dad. It was very nice to be there and very interesting to learn more about it. I am getting excited about this new endeavor. It seems like something that I will like more than 'normal' church. 

My dad is so smart. I am lucky to share his genes.

The worst moment for the atheist is when he is really thankful and has nobody to thank.
Dante Gabriel Rossetti (1828 - 1882)

A painter paints his pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence.
Leopold Stokowski

Brain: an apparatus with which we think we think.

Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Dictionary
US author & satirist (1842 - 1914)

Writing:


I’m doing it right now. I do it everyday. I take it for granted, I think we all do. The ability we have to express our thoughts on paper. And our emotions, in some way. Its more like expressing what we think about our emotions. I can type, “I am happy” or “I am fearful.” but, emotions are much more complex than that. I is a very nice thing to be able to write.
Sadly, I am stuck many times when it comes to writing poetry and lyrics for songs. I have ideas in my head for an emotion i want to express but, it is so darn (damn) hard to express them on paper (computer screen), it comes so easily for some people, but not for me. I WISH IT DID. If I am to consider myself a song writer, then why do I have such a hard time writing songs? Can someone help me with this? If anyone has any tricks of the trade, please comment about them. Not just about song writing, just anything that has anything to do with creative writing (which is ALL writing, in my opinion.)
Anywhat... That is something I really want to get better at. I feel I have a decent level of talent in writing music and arranging musical instruments, but I wish I could deal with words better. I am listening to Bright Eyes right now. A great band led by Conner Oberst, who writes the songs and lyrics. It really is good stuff. He doesn’t have the best voice in the world but he sure can write some good lyrics. I want to be able to do that! Help me!
So, yeah. Thats all, sorry for ranting.

p.s. If any of you have a poem you don’t need, I’ll take it. I’ll make it music.

Hello. How is everyone? I'm fine. A little tired and I don't really want to go to work. Hopefully this coffee I made is working.
Anyways...
Bailey and I went to Seguin/New Braunfels/San Antonio for a little vacation. It was awesome. We got to spend time at Shlitterbahn water park which was really fun, even though the lines for the rides were long. I didn't mind the lines too much because I had Bailey with me. We stayed in Seguin cause the hotel was cheapest there. On tuesday, walked around San Antonio, which I haven't done in a long time. San Antonio has a really cool downtown. We also saw Batman, which was sweet. The only thing I didn't like about the trip was the length. I wish we had more time down there. But I guess all vacations are like that.

I hope to go on more vacation trips with Bailey in the future.


Oo.. I am tired, I really should go to bed before midnight. I'll try to make more of an effort.

My girlfriend has the most amazing voice! We recorded a cover of "You really got a hold on me" last night and I have been listening to it over and over. I am blown away by the control she has over her vocal chords. Truely a beautiful instrument she has inside her. I wish I could sing half as good as her.


anywho, off to work. :(

Sometimes I get bored with the way things are. I have always been like that. As a kid I would escape into video games, books or movies. Even now, I try to escape into books, fantasy worlds, music, the internet, and all kinds of things. Some people even go so far as to use drugs. I think all of us have some basic need to escape the normal. Like it is a primal instinct or something. This is one of the reasons humans are so far along as a species. We are never satisfied with the way things are, we always need things to be better. Better technology, better music, better church services, better dance moves. And, in some way, this is why we are all competitive.

Well, this is not the post I meant to write. I started by saying that I sometimes get bored with the world. But then, every time i slip into that way of thinking, like clockwork, something comes along that never fails to amaze me. The world really is filled with amazing things. Take dreams for example. Dreams are a whole other reality we create as we sleep. Incredible! Or what about clouds? Every time we look up we are treated to a completely unique painting in the sky. Also, there might be aliens out there looking back at us from beyond the clouds, but that is neither here nor there.

But still, these moments of clarity are few and far between for me, and probably for most people. At least for Americans.

It is almost as if humans are trained to ignore the beautiful and amazing things of the world in order to focus on the mundane, man-made institutions of money, work and fame. As if we were drone bees working for the queen bee that is success but all the while losing sight of the architectural beauty of the beehive; even more, the world around it.

Why is this? There is still much more to be explored.


Well, I started this post this morning and added a bit more after work. I hope it isn’t too nonsensical. I may be the only one who thinks like this. I hope everybody today will stop and look around at the place we live in called earth and admire its charm.

my band played at Art Six coffee house a few weeks ago and some good folks happened to be filming a documentary about the place while we were there. here it is!

apparently.

Hi, Guys. I've been a bit neglectful once again. I haven't posted in a few days.
A few reasons I can think of might be the cause.
First, I've been somewhat lazy when it comes to creativity.
Second, I just don't have much to say.
And, Third, Uh... I can't think of a third reason (see reason number one.).

I do have some new news for those of you who are not directly in the know.

I am going back to school this fall. .... Woah! Don't get too exited about it yet, it is not like I'm going to Yale or anything. I'm just taking 12 hours at TCC.
There are a few reasons for this.
One is the fact that I have been out of school for a while now with the intention of going back and seeing that I am 23 years old, I probably should get my keester back in motion as it were.
Second, I just hate the thought of another semester of 'nothing'. I need something to do, ya know?.
Third, Hmm... I guess I just like the idea of being a student.
And now I won't be a silly young guy, fresh out of high school, clueless about life.
I'll be a somewhat older guy, fresh out of nothing, clueless about life.
So yeah, That is all I have.
Time for work.