tastetheuniverse

website

2009-11-12T19:07:00.001-08:00

got my computer fixed! So now I am giving my website a make over. I haven't decided to use this or that as my blog but I will try to start blogging again either way.

here's the link. www.willcarmack.com

my cats will beat you up

2009-11-12T13:44:00.000-08:00

procrastination

2009-11-11T19:32:00.001-08:00

happy belated birthday

2009-08-31T14:07:00.000-07:00

Hi.

I'm 25.

My Birthday was on Thursday. It was great fun. I have been doing fun things since then. I'll start with today, then go back in time sequentially.

Today I will go eat with my family and friends at my mom and pop's house. I think it's gonna be Brazilian. YumYum! Yesterday, Bailey and I went to her Dad's house and took family Christmas photos. I got to be the photographer! What an honor! The day before yesterday, I went to work and made some tips and we were really busy. After that, I had a few friends over and we all had a lot of fun playing music and playing the Wii. The day before the day before yesterday, Bailey took me to the Kimball Art Museum and we saw the new exhibit there. It's called, "Butchers, Dragons, Gods & Skeletons" It was very neat and cool. You should check it out, it is free! (at least it was when we were there.) After that, we took a sharp turn in American culture and went to WinStar Casino. We had a lot of fun there too. So many pretty lights. The day before the day before the day before yesterday was my actual birthday. It was a great day, I worked and made some tips; it wasn't that busy. After that, my family, Bailey, Ryan and I went out to eat at Sweet Basil. Sweet Basil is a great little Thai restaurant near the NE Mall. It was fun eating interesting food together. Before we ate, I got some presents! Ryan got me some Legos! Laura got me a storm trooper coffee thermos and the book, The Daimond Age, by Neil Stephenson! and my parents got me a cool guitar pedal called "HolyStain" and they also got me a sweet new camera. A Canon Rebel T1i!!!!!!! It is very awesome. Very.

Thank you everyone for making my birthday a great one! Here's a couple pictures I took with my new camera. The first is of my kitty, Tambourine. And the second is of Pretzel.

2009-08-09T20:37:00.001-07:00

sad potato

music

2009-08-03T21:25:00.000-07:00

this makes make happy. music is in us all.

Sometimes I like think about the fact that, no matter what time it is, someone in the world is making music.

this is cool

2009-05-08T22:02:00.001-07:00

make your own music with youtube

Hello again

2009-04-27T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hello to those of you who still check this blog! Thanks for being faithful. Above is a picture Pretzel.

Hmm. Well, what has happened in my little life lately? Let me tell you.

-Bailey turned 21! Weee! Fun stuff! I’ll let her tell you about it in her blog when she posts again.

-I got another cat. She is named Tambourine, after the instrument that she enjoys playing while I record. She’s getting really good at it. (Don't worry Pretzel, I still love you.)

-My phone got stolen at Grapevine Mills Mall. But thanks to my awesome dad, I already have a replacement! Thanks Daddy-o!

-I purchased another guitar on ebay by pseudo-accident. I was the only bidder and thought I would be out bid, but I wasn’t… Oh well, life is rough.

-I have gotten back into the music of Owen Pallett (who goes by “Final Fantasy”) again. If you haven’t heard of him, check out his stuff on iTunes or something. His album “He Poos Clouds” is my favorite. (I know, weird…) The style is kinda like symphony music crossed with folk-pop.

-I’ve been recording some new songs at my apartment. I have a little music room set up where I can record simple songs. It is really fun and also sleep depriving.

-I Saw the movie Earth by Disney with Bailey. Its a nature documentary that takes footage from Discovery’s Planet Earth and puts it to the narration of Darth Vader. It was real good. Go see it! Prepare for a wave of emotions.

-I finally wrote in my blog again.

-I am sure I made numerous typos.

See ya later!

website

2009-03-14T14:56:00.001-07:00

Hey Guys! Check my newly updated website at www.willcarmack.com

I put some songs on it. Let me know what you think.

2009-02-26T14:00:00.001-08:00

Hey guys. Long time no post you say? Well, sorry.

The other day I got cable installed in my new apartment after some frustration with billing issues. They basically stole $320.90 from me. They're sending me a refund check in a few weeks. I hate being walked all over by large corporations. Oh well, at least I get to have cable. Well, Sorta, the cable box must be messed up because the audio keeps cutting out while I watch my favorite shows. I miss so many punch lines... They're coming to fix it on sunday. I hope

It has been warm/hot the last few days so I decided to turn on the A/C in my apartment only to find that it doesn't work, it only blows lukewarm air... Currently, it's 86 degrees in my apartment and muggy. They're coming to fix it sometime. I hope.

Anywho. that's all for this time. Maybe I'll post again this year.

Some pictures from recent good times.

2009-01-16T09:07:00.000-08:00

nothing to say but,

2009-01-13T20:41:00.001-08:00

Ben Gleib

2008-12-21T21:41:00.000-08:00

Hello! Here comes a real post!

I hope you enjoyed the pic of me and Bailey. My head became too large for my neck to support so I used Bailey's elongated noggin to rest it upon. Thanks, Bailey!

We are going to take a trip in the beginning of January to Houston to check out the museums there. It should be a blast!. I love museums and i know Bailey does too.

In other news: I love the band "Final Fantasy" (named after the popular/excellent video game series.) The band actually has one official member, his name Owen Pallet. He's Canadian. You should definitely listen to his music, if you haven't yet. He plays violin and sings. I am considering him my favorite musician for today.

In other other news: I am reading a book called "Snow Crash" by Neil Stephenson. Laura read one of his books and told my is was great and since it is sci-fi I thought i'd try it. So far it is great!

Well, thats all for now.

2008-12-20T21:54:00.000-08:00

la la la... It's me! I'm it!

2008-12-15T19:16:00.001-08:00

Hello.My mom tagged me. At first I froze but then I realized this wasn't freeze tag... I'm supposed to tell you six interesting things about myself. So here I go.

1) I almost always have very cold hands. It sucks and makes hand shaking very awkward sometimes.
2) I know how to play nine(ish) instruments but can barely read music.
3) I was born with blue eyes but they turned green in 1st grade.
4) I have played Dungeons and Dragons.
5) My favorite number is 27.
6) My favorite food is the green olive.

I think everyone i know who has a blog has already been tagged.

hey!

2008-12-07T17:13:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the delay.

I hope everyone is doing well. I am. Thanks.

Anywho, if you find yourself bored this friday night, come to Buon Giorno coffee shop and see me and my friend mike play music! its free and they have great coffee!

2008-11-17T22:42:00.001-08:00

Blehhh... I spent a long while working on a song i've been recording. Mainly the vocals. After over an hour of work, the computer crashed and I neglected to save. Oh well. I guess the powers that be thought it didn't sound very good...

In other news: Bailey's and my anniversary of togetherness is on wednesday! I am very excited about it but also nervous that i will screw something up.

_posted on Tuesday, 17 November 2008_[time of day: unknown}_

2008-11-16T17:48:00.001-08:00

¡¡uʍop ǝpısdn ǝdʎʇ ʎluo uɐɔ ı dlǝɥ

2008-11-11T14:45:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody!

How have you all been? Doing well, I hope.

I made another blog on blogger.

I realized that I have been posting a lot of videos on this blog when it probably should reserved for my own ideas.It is so hard not to do this because I find so many things that I want people to see. The link for the new blog is on the right. It's called "Watch This".

Check it out! but, don't feel obligated to.

i really want one of these.

2008-11-09T20:47:00.000-08:00

wooo!

2008-11-07T21:09:00.001-08:00

they're playing saws

note taking

2008-11-06T21:13:00.001-08:00

hello again! I've decided to upload an unnecessary amount of doodles. also, how do you like my new blog layout? go apple!

hello again

2008-11-05T12:22:00.000-08:00

Wow, I have certainly been neglecting my blog. I don’t really know the reason for this. It's not because I’ve been too busy or there is nothing to type about. I can’t put my finger on the reason.

A few things have happened (and not happened) since my last substantial post:

First, the obvious: Barrack Obama won the election, by a lot. I won’t be secretive, I voted for him and I am glad that he is going to be my president. His speech after the outcome was quite impressive, in my opinion. It really grabbed my attention and kept me from blinking. Also, he has a plan that I like and he seems very dedicated to it. also, check this out.

Second, the not so well-known: There was supposed to be a huge alien spaceship appearing in the skies on October 14th. It didn’t happen. Many, many people in the internet community and UFO community really believed it would happen, all based on one woman’s channeling of other worldly entities saying that they would appear. I really wished it would appear but I didn’t think it would. Oh well.

Third: Most of you probably know that I have been attending TCC this semester. I am happy to say that it is going very well. It is a good feeling to actually

be going to classes and making decent/good grades. I plan to continue my education until I get my bachelors degree.I credit this change in motivation about school to Bailey. She doesn’t tell me to do my homework or anything like that

but, somehow being with her makes me want to succeed. At some

point in the somewhat near future I will need to transfer to a university.

Fourth: Bailey and I went to the zoo!

Well, thats all I have for now.

{[will - signing off}]

i can't think of much to say lately... so here.

2008-11-03T20:38:00.001-08:00

2008-10-30T20:47:00.000-07:00

you have to check this out! it is so cool. http://labs.ideeinc.com/multicolr/

(and, my last post was supposed to be silly, not depressing...)

Waiting

2008-10-21T07:48:00.001-07:00

Hello everybody. I am sitting here, waiting for my clothes to dry, waiting to go to work. When I get there I will run around, wait on tables, wait for them to leave and wait for work to be over. After that I will drive home and wait for my cat's vet appointment, then I will drive her there and wait for it to be over so I can drive back home and wait for the flea medication to start working.

oopsy

2008-10-13T08:38:00.000-07:00

I woke up late! Too late, in fact. I am currently missing my first class, Psychology for the first time.

In fact, this is the first time I've missed any classes this semester.

During the frantic, fast-paced brushing of my teeth I accidentally jammed the toothbrush into the back of my mouth and it started bleeding. Hurts a lot. (I know, that is gross and too much information. Sorry)

I was partly hoping for perfect attendance, but oh well. We had a quiz in that class. They are probably taking it right now. Not a big deal.

I know I could have probably just walked in late but, I hate doing that.

Everyone just stares at me. Makes me feel embarrassed.

At least I can still go to my next class at 11:15

sorry i haven't posted in while.

2008-10-10T15:20:00.000-07:00

so here is a cute kitten.

oh wow

2008-09-30T07:51:00.001-07:00

(i just woke up)

I went and saw The Swell Season with Iron and Wine last night and all i have to say is "WOW" it was a great experience. I haven't been to a concert in a long time where i have been so captured by the music as i was last night. It was really good. Glen Hansard has probably the most powerful voice ever. and it is perfect live.

Iron and Wine was amazing too but I really didn't like the way the sound guy mixed it. Oh well. But, Cinder and Smoke and Trapeze Swinger sounded AMAZING.

And the fact that it was just me and my favorite girl seeing our favorite singers made it the best show ever.

woooo!

(I would like to write much more but I have to go to work. )

(sorry for typos, i didn't proofread)

OKAY

2008-09-15T22:07:00.001-07:00

4 new songs on my myspace, please check them out and let me know what you think.

( try to listen to them on decent speakers or headphones if you can)

(sorry i don't have anything else to say.)

2008-09-14T19:58:00.000-07:00

new song on my myspace. not sure if it is working though. lemme know.

2008-09-09T08:04:00.001-07:00

I’m sorry for the lack of consistency in my blog postings. I don’t think I have been motivated when it comes to it. So, I will try to force myself. Myself.

Myself.

Think about that word. Myself. My-Self. The word seems to imply an ownership of your being. Sort of circular, perhaps? The self is owning itself. It doesn’t make much sense to me when I actually think about it. Like there is something behind it all, owning me. What is my? It is myself. Is it? That doesn’t make sense. AH!

Sorry. This post may be nonsensical.

See? This is what happens when I don’t know what to type about.

2008-09-05T21:31:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna see this guy live with my best girl!

OH YEH!

2008-08-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

Yes. Iron and Wine is playing in Dallas with The Swell Season next month and Bailey and I have tickets! Woo! That will be great. It is a match made in heaven, at least for Bailey and I. I almost pee'd my pants when I found out they'll be playing at the same show. Sweeet.

Anyways.... I don't want to go to work, there is a big sale going on and we will be bery busy.

2008-08-24T20:57:00.001-07:00

scared and excited

similar

myspace

2008-08-19T21:30:00.000-07:00

I added two new songs on my myspace. (linked at the right) they're not the highest of quality...

Happy Birthday.

2008-08-11T13:27:00.000-07:00

Today is Laura's day of birth. Happy Birthday Laura! Sorry I didn't go to Six Flags with you. I hope you had a great time.

I just cleaned my apartment. Well, at least my living room and kitchen. I don't know why I always feels better to be in a clean environment. Everything in its right place. I guess humans like order. I am really bad at keeping my place clean. I always have been. My mom can testify. TESTIFY!

Somedays I wake up with the urge to go to guitar center. Like, it is the first thing I think of. Today was one of those days. I didn't go though because I needed to clean. I have a problem that a lot of people have. I am an impulsive buyer. When I want something, I buy it. This results in major clutter and ridiculous amount of unnecessary crap. If you haven't seen my apartment, then you're lucky. Your senses would be bombarded with unused items and mismatched decorations.

Anyway. I'm gonna head over to my parents house to wrap Laura's gifts and get my car to the mechanic. (stupid car.)

august

2008-08-02T07:54:00.001-07:00

It is august again and I feel like my life is about to change in a lot of ways; some good, some scary. It hit me like a sledge hammer when I woke up today.

I am finally going back to school, that's the big one. Also, Bailey will be attending UTA. I will be another year older. zeroChurch is starting. My cousin is getting married. I will be (hopefully) living in a new apartment. I will be working less at the tea room. My old friend, Alex is moving back to the metroplex. etc.

This is a lot, I think. Nothing too big, like marriage or state moving, but big none the less. It -is- scary. As these things on the outside of me change, I will need to change myself on the inside somewhat. I need to start doing some things and I need to stop doing others.

I feel like my life style is too chaotic, in a way. I need more organization. I think I will start by cleaning my apartment when I get off work.

bleh... work...

i'll post more later.

p.s. I saw Andrew Reagan Huffman and he is one awesome baby!

charcoal

2008-07-31T20:31:00.000-07:00

I bought a sketch pad and some charcoal sticks because I want to try something visual not using the computer. I used iphoto to take a pic of it, (i guess i can't get away from the computer...) here is one of the things i drew real quick. I kinda like it. I know nothing about the charcoal technique, so don't be a critic. I would like to take some art classes in the future. But, don't think I would be an art major so those classes would be pointless according to the system.

... School is starting soon, I am getting excited about it, and scared. I had a dream last night that I went to my highschool and snuck into a class. I kinda liked it.

Also, I went to a zeroChurch core group meeting last night led by my dad. It was very nice to be there and very interesting to learn more about it. I am getting excited about this new endeavor. It seems like something that I will like more than 'normal' church.

My dad is so smart. I am lucky to share his genes.

quotes for the head

2008-07-29T15:55:00.001-07:00

The worst moment for the atheist is when he is really thankful and has nobody to thank.
Dante Gabriel Rossetti (1828 - 1882)

A painter paints his pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence.
Leopold Stokowski

Brain: an apparatus with which we think we think.

Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Dictionary
US author & satirist (1842 - 1914)

write

2008-07-26T15:20:00.000-07:00

Writing:

I’m doing it right now. I do it everyday. I take it for granted, I think we all do. The ability we have to express our thoughts on paper. And our emotions, in some way. Its more like expressing what we think about our emotions. I can type, “I am happy” or “I am fearful.” but, emotions are much more complex than that. I is a very nice thing to be able to write.
Sadly, I am stuck many times when it comes to writing poetry and lyrics for songs. I have ideas in my head for an emotion i want to express but, it is so darn (damn) hard to express them on paper (computer screen), it comes so easily for some people, but not for me. I WISH IT DID. If I am to consider myself a song writer, then why do I have such a hard time writing songs? Can someone help me with this? If anyone has any tricks of the trade, please comment about them. Not just about song writing, just anything that has anything to do with creative writing (which is ALL writing, in my opinion.)
Anywhat... That is something I really want to get better at. I feel I have a decent level of talent in writing music and arranging musical instruments, but I wish I could deal with words better. I am listening to Bright Eyes right now. A great band led by Conner Oberst, who writes the songs and lyrics. It really is good stuff. He doesn’t have the best voice in the world but he sure can write some good lyrics. I want to be able to do that! Help me!
So, yeah. Thats all, sorry for ranting.

p.s. If any of you have a poem you don’t need, I’ll take it. I’ll make it music.

a few new ones

2008-07-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

fun

2008-07-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hello. How is everyone? I'm fine. A little tired and I don't really want to go to work. Hopefully this coffee I made is working.
Anyways...
Bailey and I went to Seguin/New Braunfels/San Antonio for a little vacation. It was awesome. We got to spend time at Shlitterbahn water park which was really fun, even though the lines for the rides were long. I didn't mind the lines too much because I had Bailey with me. We stayed in Seguin cause the hotel was cheapest there. On tuesday, walked around San Antonio, which I haven't done in a long time. San Antonio has a really cool downtown. We also saw Batman, which was sweet. The only thing I didn't like about the trip was the length. I wish we had more time down there. But I guess all vacations are like that.

I hope to go on more vacation trips with Bailey in the future.

Oo.. I am tired, I really should go to bed before midnight. I'll try to make more of an effort.

2008-07-18T07:57:00.000-07:00

My girlfriend has the most amazing voice! We recorded a cover of "You really got a hold on me" last night and I have been listening to it over and over. I am blown away by the control she has over her vocal chords. Truely a beautiful instrument she has inside her. I wish I could sing half as good as her.

anywho, off to work. :(

2008-07-17T22:00:00.001-07:00

Strange World

2008-07-16T13:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get bored with the way things are. I have always been like that. As a kid I would escape into video games, books or movies. Even now, I try to escape into books, fantasy worlds, music, the internet, and all kinds of things. Some people even go so far as to use drugs. I think all of us have some basic need to escape the normal. Like it is a primal instinct or something. This is one of the reasons humans are so far along as a species. We are never satisfied with the way things are, we always need things to be better. Better technology, better music, better church services, better dance moves. And, in some way, this is why we are all competitive.

Well, this is not the post I meant to write. I started by saying that I sometimes get bored with the world. But then, every time i slip into that way of thinking, like clockwork, something comes along that never fails to amaze me. The world really is filled with amazing things. Take dreams for example. Dreams are a whole other reality we create as we sleep. Incredible! Or what about clouds? Every time we look up we are treated to a completely unique painting in the sky. Also, there might be aliens out there looking back at us from beyond the clouds, but that is neither here nor there.

But still, these moments of clarity are few and far between for me, and probably for most people. At least for Americans.

It is almost as if humans are trained to ignore the beautiful and amazing things of the world in order to focus on the mundane, man-made institutions of money, work and fame. As if we were drone bees working for the queen bee that is success but all the while losing sight of the architectural beauty of the beehive; even more, the world around it.

Why is this? There is still much more to be explored.

Well, I started this post this morning and added a bit more after work. I hope it isn’t too nonsensical. I may be the only one who thinks like this. I hope everybody today will stop and look around at the place we live in called earth and admire its charm.

cool

2008-07-12T18:23:00.000-07:00

my band played at Art Six coffee house a few weeks ago and some good folks happened to be filming a documentary about the place while we were there. here it is!

ooo man. I'm bored.

2008-07-09T14:25:00.001-07:00

apparently.

Hello there.

2008-07-09T07:49:00.000-07:00

Hi, Guys. I've been a bit neglectful once again. I haven't posted in a few days.
A few reasons I can think of might be the cause.
First, I've been somewhat lazy when it comes to creativity.
Second, I just don't have much to say.
And, Third, Uh... I can't think of a third reason (see reason number one.).

I do have some new news for those of you who are not directly in the know.

I am going back to school this fall. .... Woah! Don't get too exited about it yet, it is not like I'm going to Yale or anything. I'm just taking 12 hours at TCC.
There are a few reasons for this.
One is the fact that I have been out of school for a while now with the intention of going back and seeing that I am 23 years old, I probably should get my keester back in motion as it were.
Second, I just hate the thought of another semester of 'nothing'. I need something to do, ya know?.
Third, Hmm... I guess I just like the idea of being a student.
And now I won't be a silly young guy, fresh out of high school, clueless about life.
I'll be a somewhat older guy, fresh out of nothing, clueless about life.
So yeah, That is all I have.
Time for work.

geez...

2008-06-29T21:14:00.000-07:00

I had a good sunday day to day. I think the music went decently. and! i saw a really good movie. it was awesome! it was kung fu panda. i really recommend it.

okay, i think i am getting carried away. these little videos are so fun to make and really easy to make as well. Maybe i will stop a while because i don't want to freak anyone out. or myself out... well. here it is, enjoy (or not. i don't care... (i really do, though)).

ooo...

2008-06-28T20:28:00.000-07:00

i've decided that filming myself is strangely entertaining to me. you don't have to watch, but comments are much appreciated.

creak

2008-06-27T16:59:00.000-07:00

Will opens the door to his old blog and peers through. He spots a few footprints marked in the dust and sand but the lights are still off. He flips the switch upward.

Hello again. I have decided to start blogging from here again. I don't think people like having to exit the perimeter of Blogger to check my rants. So I think I will use it again. Also, with my website, I can only update it from the computer at my apartment. With blogger, I can blog from around the world. Much more convenient that way. So, I hope people start reading it again, I will be more consistent in my posting.

I hope everyone is doing well.

I've had a rough week so far and I've a lot on my mind. Much of my life is up in the air right now. I won't go into details. I think I have come to a decision as to what to do but, nothing is set in stone, as it were. My brain and body are worn out. I just took a nice, long nap and feel a little better about my cognitive skills although I still don't feel normal.

I wish everyone reading this a good evening and good day tomorrow, it's saturday, rejoice.

Later, Alligator...

also, I decided to make a Vlog!

oahhh!!

2008-05-08T22:31:00.001-07:00

hmm. this might be a bit premature but, here is a website i created. it will eventually replace this here blog but, not yet. don't be scared... go ahead, click.

(don't make fun of the first post)

I'm not emo.

2008-05-07T18:04:00.000-07:00

I think it is one of my pet peeves to be labeled as "emo". Perhaps it is because when I think of emo kids, I think of those annoying high school and middle schoolers at the mall who think they are so cool. And most emo music sucks.

So to the person who called me emo... Phshbshbsshhshbsh. (that is supposed to be the noise of me sticking out my tongue and making that farting sound... you know.)

but really.

I'm just kidding.

I'm not mad.

or angry.

click

i feel

2008-05-06T21:12:00.000-07:00

for those of you who don't know about Syd Barrett

2008-05-06T19:55:00.000-07:00

Roger Keith "Syd" Barrett is most remembered as a founding member of Pink Floyd, providing major musical and stylistic direction in their early work. He left the group in 1968 amidst speculations of mental illness exacerbated by heavy drug use.

He was active as a rock musician for about seven years, recording two albums with Pink Floyd and two solo albums before going into self-imposed seclusion lasting more than thirty years. His post-rock band life was as an artist and gardener, ending with his death in 2006.

Here are the (amazing, in my opinion) lyrics to the song Shine On You Crazy Diamond, a Pink Floyd song written about Syd on the album Wish You Were Here.

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom,
blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter,
come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!
You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,
rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions,
come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!

thank you

2008-05-04T14:54:00.000-07:00

Hello. I would just like to type, "Thanks guys for the good comments on my last post."

there.

I usually don't vent like that in this blog. I don't like being "real", you know?

I've just been having many internal struggles about my life, where I am going and what my future will look like.

so,

thank you, guys.

p.s.

who left that anonymous comment???? i really need to know.

hmm. mmm... hmm. okay. whatever.

2008-04-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

Well. My brain is filled with neurons firing at synapses. (or is it the other way around?) Every thought I have seems to form into an idea, but just before it does, it vanishes and is replaced by another not-yet-fully conceived-idea.
When I was a child, I was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder or ADD. In sixth, and half of seventh grade, I was failing my classes. Math especially. I had (and still have) a very hard time focusing on anything.

Sometimes I look at people who are very smart, have good philosophical knowledge, have huge vocabularies, nice degrees, good social skills and otherwise a good way about them and I become jealous. I compare myself to them and it really hurts my feelings. (I wish I could have been there to hear your -whole- sermon, Rob. I'll listen to it in full on the podcast.) I know I have some good qualities about myself but when compared to other people (the kind of people i would like to be) i seem to fall short. I want to have deep conversations with people. I want to be able to quote great philosophers while using big fancy words, or small difficult words. I know what you are thinking... your asking, "Then why Will? Why did you ever drop out of college?" I hate that question.

A few years ago, I told a doctor about my shyness, and my anxiety in social situations. I told him about how nervous I get when I am around people. (yes, I am always nervous when I am around you.) His response was, "Perhaps you were misdiagnosed as a child. Perhaps you do not have ADD, but in fact have General or Social Anxiety. It could reflect in your studies as well." Well, he said it in a more professional, doctorly way, but you get the idea.

Well anyway. What was I talking about?

Sorry this post is long and doesn't make much sense. I have ADD remember? ...or was it that other thing...

p.s.
Sometimes i think i am just incredibly lazy. (duh.) And sometimes I think that I am two people. One of me is bad and the other is good, but the good one is lazy and the bad one isn't. I wish the bad one was lazy so he would be to sleepy to rear his ugly head.

yay!

2008-04-26T08:43:00.001-07:00

wedding

2008-04-26T08:32:00.001-07:00

well, I'm filming my first wedding today. Wish me luck. And Yay Jenny! (it is her wedding). and thank you Aron and Dad for helping me.

i want to be him

2008-04-21T17:46:00.001-07:00

Hello.

2008-04-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

I am feeling lonley, bored and am in a downright sour mood for no reasonat all. So I do what every one does. I turn to the internet. YouTube! Google! Blogger! Oh MY!

Whilst "surfing" the web, I came across this funny site. http://www.andrewdavidson.com/gibberish/ (i can't make it link for some reason, just copy and paste.) It is fun! just type in the name of a made up company and the site randomly generates some gibbrish that looks profesional.
I think it is fun.

Anyway... I don't know what else to say.

wait....

on a diffrent subject... today is my day off and i actually woke up early. I woke up at 7:30! (that is an accomplishment for me)
the reason is cable. and the arrival of the cable guy to fix my cable.

that is all.

Album/EP/Demo

2008-04-15T13:42:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone. I have a project for the few of you who read my blog and it will be no small task. Just kidding.

I need help! I am working on a Album/EP/Demo of songs I have recorded. I have not yet completely decided which songs to put on it, but I'll figure it out. BUT, I need your help in coming up with a name for the Album/EP/Demo. So... please comment if you have any ideas.

What would be a cool album name? It can be anything.

the coolest thing ever?

2008-04-09T21:33:00.001-07:00

just watch, i love it.

Hello there.

2008-04-05T20:27:00.001-07:00

Hey guys. I hope everyone is well. I hope works wasn't to stressful and schoolwork was easy.

Here is another picture of mine. And also, I put up three new songs on my myspace. Don't laugh at me.

look at me!

2008-04-05T16:09:00.000-07:00

hey look! I'm like Laura!

... it looks like I'm punching myself in the head.

okay

2008-03-29T16:16:00.001-07:00

i know i -just- posted but... please watch this. it is a poem by Billy Collins, read by himself... i like it much. here

there is something very disturbing about this

2008-03-29T16:03:00.000-07:00

read

hello

2008-03-28T15:21:00.000-07:00

happy friday

here i am at home

2008-03-23T21:01:00.000-07:00

Hey! Guess what?! I am blogging from my apartment now. Yes, that is right. i have the internet (and cable). Yeah it is pretty sweet, not im not so lonley here all alone... and stuff. For those of you who doin't know, I have a myspace (myspace.com/wilburwalnut) with a few of my songs on it. you really should go check it out. i just recorded and uploaded another song on there. don't mind the bell sound in the song, it is a bit out of tune... sorry about that. and also, here is another picture i painted with photoshop.

here

2008-03-22T14:01:00.001-07:00

made on photoshop also.

pardon me for the nonsense.

2008-03-19T13:49:00.000-07:00

I've recently been thinking about the concept of freedom. Most people probably think of The United States of America when they ponder on the word 'freedom', for some reason, I dislike that fact . It is not that I dislike The United States of America, I just feel that freedom is much bigger than one country.

For me, freedom is getting in your car and being able to drive to another state on a whim. I don't have that freedom because I have a job I need to do and sometimes gas is just too damn expensive. Or, freedom can simply mean, 'living for free', which no one can do because of those silly taxes. And I know people who don't have the freedom to leave the country because they don't want to pay for a passport. And some people want to be free from inner city violence, poverty and the burden of multiple jobs... but it costs so much money...

i hate money.

but sadly... i love money.

Earthbound.

2008-03-09T13:39:00.000-07:00

I am sitting here watching my mother learn how to post pictures on her blog and for some reason i thought of my favorite video game of all time. Many people haven't heard of it and too bad for them. The Game is Called Earthbound. It is fore the Super Nintendo. EarthBound is set in the year "199X" in the small town of Onett, part of Eagleland. The main character, Ness, wakes up when a meteor falls close to his house in the middle of the night. He heads out to investigate the meteor, but not before his mother reminds him to change out of his pajamas. At the crash site, he meets his next door neighbor, Pokey (Porky in Japan), who tells him to go home and stop bothering the police. Ness is awoken later that night by Pokey to help him find his lost brother, Picky. They go to the meteor crash site where they find Picky sleeping as well as meeting an insect named Buzz Buzz from ten years in the future who sends him on a quest to defeat the intergalactic destroyer Giygas in this time, because he is too powerful in the time that Buzz Buzz came from. Ness must then journey through the world, seeking his eight "sanctuaries" where the Earth's power is strongest in order to unite his own powers with the Earth's and gain the strength needed to confront Giygas.
Ness finds the first sanctuary in Onett and then moves on to Twoson. He rescues a girl named Paula from the Happy Happyist Cult in Happy Happy Village and finds the second sanctuary there. Then, they move on to Threed, which is overrun by zombies. When Ness and Paula are captured, Paula sends a telepathic message to Jeff in Winters, who uses Dr. Andonuts (his father)'s Sky Runner to reach Threed and rescue Ness and Paula. The three of them travel to Saturn Valley, which is populated by a bizarre race of creatures called Mr. Saturns, who have been going missing recently. A massive pile of vomit named Belch has been kidnapping them, and has also given life to the zombies to attack Threed. Ness defeats him by using a jar of fly honey, and Ness finds the third sanctuary in Saturn valley. He moves on to Fourside. Once there, he discovers that Fourside's Mayor, Monotoli has been taken over by a strange item called the Mani Mani Statue. Ness frees Monotoli, who tells Ness to go to a pyramid in a desert.
Ness finds the fourth and fifth sanctuaries in Winters and Fourside, respectively. Ness returns to Threed and fixes the Skyrunner to go to Summers. Ness falls unconscious in Summers and dreams of a far-off land known as Dalaam, where Prince Poo has completed his 'Mu' training and joins Ness on his quest. The four of them find a boat and go to Scaraba and Ness finds the pyramid, where he learns how to defeat Giygas. Ness returns to Dalaam and finds the sixth sanctuary there. He uses a submarine to go to Deep Darkness, where he meets Belch again. Once Belch is defeated, Ness finds the Tenda Village. Only the people of Tenda can open the way to the Seventh Sanctuary, but they're all too shy. Apple Kid has a book about overcoming shyness, but is kidnapped by Giygas. Ness returns to Winters and rescues Apple Kid, and Dr. Andonuts, who begins building the Phase Distorter, a machine that is essential to defeating Giygas. Ness uses the book to convince the Tenda to open the way to the Seventh Sanctuary. Once he activates it, he finds the eighth and final sanctuary in the lost underworld.
When Ness activates the final sanctuary, he is teleported to a world made out of his dreams, Magicant. He destroys the evil Mani Mani Statue there, which destroys Magicant but also makes Ness very strong. Dr Andonuts finishes the Phase Distorter and uses it to send Ness, Paula, Jeff and Poo back into the past. The four of them find that Ness's neighbor, Pokey has allied himself with Giygas. Giygas becomes so powerful that his mind is completely destroyed. Paula begins praying, which weakens Giygas's defenses. When the player begins praying too (via on-screen text), Giygas is completely eradicated. Pokey escapes, and Ness and his friends safely return home. It is an Awesome game.

2008-03-07T13:24:00.000-08:00

this is a picture of gus and his fish friend named timothy

2008-02-29T14:11:00.000-08:00

motherly love

2008-02-27T16:23:00.000-08:00

here you go again. so precious i think.

here u go

2008-02-23T15:07:00.000-08:00

hello again. i've recently gotten in the mood for drawing creatures with big heads via photoshop. ... i know it is amateur but hey. thats me.

her name is suzy.

here

2008-02-21T13:42:00.000-08:00

not sure what to type about. any ideas? no?... maybe you do but i can't hear you. speak up, okay?

anyway. i think i'll go and try to record something. i try a lot. i usually go in there with no idea of what i am going to record and usually come out with crap, but sometimes i come out with a song that is decent. today is cold, cloudy, misty and thursday. a kind of dreariness that i dislike. sometimes i like days like this, but not this one. too cold or something. maybe because it is thursday. probably the most boring day of the week. even the name is boring... ...thuuuursdaaay... yeah. boring

-your pal, Williams

p.s. here's a picture i just made! (sorry if it disturbs you)

i love the wii too

2008-02-17T12:44:00.001-08:00

2008-02-13T18:33:00.000-08:00

if life is really as short as they say, then why are the nights so long?

hi

2008-02-09T19:08:00.000-08:00

hello. sorry about the hiatus. i'm a lazy person. get used to it. today is grandmother's birthday. happy birthday grandmother. i have new news, (redundant? i think not. people say "old news" all the time) my roommate buford is moving out in a few weeks due to failure to pay rent. this is most likely a good thing for both of us. i've realized that i am an enabler and now he is no longer an enablee. (yes it is a word, look it up.) also, in other new news. i am a prophet soul.

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.

Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.

Sometimes this faith can lead to disappointment in the long run.

No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.

Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.

A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.

You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

iphone

2008-01-29T22:17:00.000-08:00

so. Now I have a new phone. And yes... It is an iphone. And yes, I am using it right now. ....this is the future. Anyway . I don't know what to say because my apartment Is filled with retards ...

Bye.

Hewwo there, ya'll.

2008-01-22T15:34:00.000-08:00

I am not in a creative moment. So I got my mom to write my blog for me. She's always in a creative mood, the wonderful lady. I'm over at my parents' house today. They're looking awesome. Sam is handsome and Nancy, my wonderful mother, is looking ravishingly gorgeous.

And Bailey is laughing her delightful laugh. She looks so spiffy with her curly hair

I am stealing batteries, but my wonderful mother loves me, so it is so okay.

Oh, I bettr mispel werds, becuz that is my stile.

I luv u all.

hewwo

2008-01-19T17:34:00.000-08:00

Hello there everybody. the reason i don't post here very much is that fact that i don't have much to say.

hmm, well, i added some new songs on my music myspace, myspace.com/wilburwalnut

i'm back from france and man is it good to be home. i flew all the way and man my arms are tired or somthing. i'm playing banjo at church tomorrow. that will be fun. i like banjo. i'm going to arkansas in a week or so. fun? it will be.

oh yeah, i saw Family Guy "Blue Harvest" funny funny. it is star wars with all the family guy characters. very funny i think. i watched it with my roommate and his friends but they didn't laugh much because i don't think they got the jokes... pfft...

anyway

i love you all

greetings from france

2008-01-08T13:59:00.000-08:00

time for a new post you say? well, i cant lie... i am not motivated to do much these days. one thing i did do was make a music myspace and put five of my songs on it. myspace.com/wilburwalnut ...don't ask why i called it that. i don't know.
anyway
if you have a myspace. be my friend! (on myspace) and if you dont have a myspace, be my friend anyway! (in real life). i hope you having a good new year this year. 2008. almost the last year we can wear those crazy new years glasses, you know, the ones where the zeros are eyeholes.

shalom.

merry christmas ye ladies and gentlemen

2007-12-25T12:34:00.000-08:00

Hello again. Wil here. It truly is a happy xmas today. i can walk outside barefoot. not a normal christmas tradition.
it was also a very musical christmas. i got a tambourine, record player, triangle, harmonica, and magic flute and flutophone. and others.

also, my phone is dead so i cant call anyone right now.. i really wanna call you bailey and say hello but it is dead. i have a stevie wonder album we need to listen to.

what up geezle

2007-12-23T14:20:00.000-08:00

Pssst... hey... (whispered tone) it's will. i'm over here..

how is it going folks. it's beena WHILE (LIKE ALWAYS) seinc i wrotte inn mye blogg.

sorry about that.

not realy.

anyhow. things re goin great. e ery one is home from thier adventures and it it great to see my sister. and everyone else too. except for that one person.

i just finnihed my xmas shopping! good thing because its almost xmas.
merry christmas eve eve!

peace be with you. shamalamalakum or something.

(rock it out)

zefrank

2007-12-17T13:44:00.000-08:00

here is a very cool video from zefrank.

i did?

2007-12-15T15:25:00.000-08:00

i wrote a poem. don't make fun of me. i'm not a poet. here:

Run with me
To somewhere
Where it’s happy

…Is that nowhere?

I hope not
Where is it?
In the sky?

…Or down below?

Bear with me
I am sorry
But I’m slow

…At least not sappy

I hope not
I don’t think so…
Or am I?

…Just let it go

album?

2007-12-13T13:46:00.000-08:00

Hello. If you know me you would know that one of my favourite hobbies is recording my songs at my mama and daddy's house in the studio. well, yesterday i went through all of my songs and put some of them all together on one cd and aranged the songs in an order that made sense to me. The total of songs (i picked my favourites) is a wopping 14!. crazy. well, its a little to much to be called a demo so i'm going to say that it is an album. hehe. i'm cool. i have and album. not available in stores.

anyway.

i'm gonna put together some artwork and a tracklisting and make it look cool. not because i am gonna sell it or anything, i just like the idea. so. if you want a copy... ask me. i guess... i'm not sure if i want people to hear it though.

also. i would like to thank Bailey for being a very good listening ear when i force her to hear my songs everytime i record one..

survey

2007-12-06T15:19:00.000-08:00

okay! the old survey is done with! so that means time for a new question. How old is your planet! good one, huh? this is so i can tell if my friends are creationists, evolutionists, hedonists or just plain stupid.

so... go for it! answer away! the results are anonymus. <---(did is spell that write?)

finally

2007-12-04T13:42:00.000-08:00

Well. here i am, finally posting again. Sorry i've been so neglectful with my posting. I can't think of much to write about. And I am lazy. Speaking of lazy. What ever happened to the "Lazy Susan" You know.. those things you put on a table that spin around so you can pass the food more easily. We need to bring those back. I miss Susan and her lazy ways. Maybe people got to carried away and spun her to fast and she spilled mashed potatoes over grandma and grandma had to sue lazy Susan to pay for her docter's bill due to 2nd degree burns. Who knows.

-edit- woo! new blog look. sexified.

ok

2007-11-21T15:46:00.000-08:00

ok, i'm done eating. now i can blogorize. i'm sitting here with friends i haven't seen a while. it is nice. i don't know what to write so i will steal other people's words.

Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.

Pablo Picasso (1881 - 1973)

The whole problem can be stated quite simply by asking, 'Is there a meaning to music?' My answer would be, 'Yes.' And 'Can you state in so many words what the meaning is?' My answer to that would be, 'No.'

Aaron Copland (1900 - 1990)

hail!

2007-11-17T15:57:00.000-08:00

hello again. how is everyone? ....... .... ..... ...... ... i'll take that as a yes.

anyway.... oops... about to eat. gotta go....--->

ooooo!

2007-11-05T15:15:00.000-08:00

i went to murphy's music in irving because i've never been there before, heard alot about it and wanted to check it out. i was intending to buy a tambourine but i bought a washburn classical guitar instead. it is so awesome.

that is all.

ooooo

2007-11-05T11:31:00.000-08:00

oy, i 'aven't posted in a while. sorry 'bout that.

good news! i just download the new Radiohead album, "In Rainbows" it is frikin' awesome. i love it, i'm listening to it now. woo. go to inrainbows.com and buy it, you get to pay as much as you want for it. but try to spend at least 5 pounds (10ish dollars). oh man, its good. i'm glad their unsigned.

........... (ten minutes later) ...........

i just read laura's posts (which always make me very envious) and then bailey's post about breaking and now i feel like i'm going to break too. (so, i's with you bailey) ..... i feel like i might have to drive my car for a while. or somthing.

oh man..

e.e. cummings

2007-10-26T21:16:00.001-07:00

maggie and milly and molly and may

went down to the beach(to play one day)

and maggie discovered a shell that sang

so sweetly she couldn't remember her troubles,and

milly befriended a stranded star

whose rays five languid fingers were;

and molly was chased by a horrible thing

which raced sideways while blowing bubbles:and

may came home with a smooth round stone

as small as a world and as large as alone.

For whatever we lose(like a you or a me)

it's always ourselves we find in the sea

home

2007-10-25T13:08:00.000-07:00

hello.
i'm back in texas now. our plane flew in from LA last night and i got in around 1:00am.

jet lag sucks.

i don't want to go to work tomorrow, i was supposed to work today, but i didn't because i thought i would be getting in earlier.
also, the alrline lost our luggage, so i don't have my phone, or my clothes. hopfully we will get it today because the are going to fedex it.

it is good to be home but i am dreading getting back into the rut of daily living.

i need something to spice up my life again.

hello

2007-10-21T00:54:00.000-07:00

hello,

just got back from the market. was quite an experience. i don't know how do describe it so you will have to wait for pictures. It is amazing how many Achenese ask to have their picture taken. Got a lot of good shots.

yesterday we rode elephants into the rain-forest, that was incredible. harder to ride than they look. I didn't know they had such... movable skin.

tonight i will help lead worship at a service in town.

also, we saw monkeys.

Banda Aceh

2007-10-18T17:07:00.000-07:00

hello.

i am sitting in the meeting/living room of missions house (don't know what to call it) in Banda Aceh. This town is truly third world and i love it. the Acehnese are very nice to americans, even to the ones carrying around a video camera, like me.

i said in my last post that we would be taking a plane to Medan, then another to Banda Aceh. Well, the group did. but me, my dad and Paul Basden didn't. Paul didn't make the flight because of a passport issue. And my dad and i didn't make the flight because my dad booked the flight on the wrong month... same date, just wrong month.

sounds bad huh?

well, actually it turned out good. we ended up catching a flight to Jukarta (capital of indonesia) stayed in a very nice hotel, then a flight the next day (at 6:15 am) to Banda Aceh where we meet up with the group only a day and half late.

anyway. i'm having a good time here. its a very sobering trip and i am glad it is my first overseas trip.

(i'm not going to post pictures because the internet is so slow here and it would take forever to upload them. you'll have to wait until i return to america.)

tastetheuniverse

website

my cats will beat you up

procrastination

happy belated birthday

music

this is cool

Hello again

website

Some pictures from recent good times.

nothing to say but,

la la la... It's me! I'm it!

hey!

i really want one of these.

wooo!

note taking

hello again

i can't think of much to say lately... so here.

Waiting

oopsy

sorry i haven't posted in while.

oh wow

OKAY

OH YEH!

myspace

Happy Birthday.

august

charcoal

quotes for the head

write

a few new ones

fun

Strange World

cool

ooo man. I'm bored.

Hello there.

geez...

ooo...

*creak*

oahhh!!

I'm not emo.

i feel

for those of you who don't know about Syd Barrett

thank you

hmm. mmm... hmm. okay. whatever.

yay!

wedding

i want to be him

Hello.

Album/EP/Demo

the coolest thing ever?

Hello there.

look at me!

okay

there is something very disturbing about this

hello

here i am at home

here

pardon me for the nonsense.

Earthbound.

motherly love

here u go

here

i love the wii too

hi

iphone

Hewwo there, ya'll.

hewwo

greetings from france

merry christmas ye ladies and gentlemen

what up geezle

zefrank

i did?

album?

survey

finally

ok

hail!

ooooo!

ooooo

creak